It was devastating the first time I couldn't stand up from the couch. It was distressing when I had to write a $430 check for my first MS prescription. It was disappointing when I could feel the medications not working. I have experienced moments of despair. I have had to learn how to overcome hopelessness and move forward. I have lied to make those around me more at ease with my disease and the toll it was taking on my life.
In contrast, I have met some amazing people I would have never come in contact with if I didn't have MS. I have experienced new things like acupuncture and yoga, new foods like Acai and Gynostemma, new education and resources like Stanford courses about stem cells on iTunes. I have learned that I do not ever want to give up or give in and that I must continue to move forward to stay alive. I finally recognized that my MS hasn't just affected me, but has also impacted those close to me more than I ever thought it would.
On November 26, 2008, I took my first step towards recovering from the last 4 agonizing years. My trip to San Jose, Costa Rica for stem cell treatment was a significant turning point in my life. I made a calculated, educated decision to try an alternative treatment. It was a decision I made to aggressively fight my MS and to take control of my life and move forward.